Petit Gateau A.k.A a load off my chest

Hi... long time no type. Yeah. Lots happened in my life. I never blogged again, not that I'm a great responsible daily blogger... but yeah. I've been sick. I kind of don't wanna talk about it. But talking in this blog makes me feel like going on, and I'm now considering it much more therapeutic than before, not a simple blog where I simply dump my art and talk nonsense (which I will continue to talk, it's always funny).

Jokes aside, I had a nervous breakdown in the beginning of this year. I don't like to brag about it, don't feel jealous, your time will come too as soon you keep working your ass off an entire year without taking any vacations. As you, - my faithful, dear reader, could see, sice I've started my blog I did nothing but talk about improving and trying to prove something that I so wish to accomplish in a very short time. That leaded me to non-stop projects, Believing in lies, and for the worst, in the end all I could achieve was an unfair debt. This was my experience, and one of the causes of my breakdown. One of the reasons I started this blog, was for that school but, as time went by, I've realized that I needed a blog more than they ever told me I did. I was writing this for the wrong reasons.

 That school did boost my ego up, but even that has something to do with I want to do in the future, I don't really need them. why? Because I'm a flat broke bastard. I wasn't born with a silver spoon in my mouth. Every little thing I achieved, it was for my own merit. I'm happy that schools like that exist. But it's not for me and most importantly, It's not worth my money (Which I never had it in the first place ). I'm more dedicated to achieve things on my own. and learn things my way. It has always been like that.

I won't talk about this ever again, because this entry is not about that. It's about a restart in my life. The nervous breakdown fucked me up so much, that I WAS FORCED to restart all over. It's like hitting the ctrl+alt+delete buttons when the computer is overheating.

And now I'm on vacations. This is the day one. My family helped me surpass the breakdown. My sister invited me to go on vacations in Norway. For those who already know me, I've been here already.

I bought another sketchbook, it's been about 2 months ( since the nervous breakdown)and I didn't draw a thing. Except for work, of course. There's so much to tell, I was trying to resume all of it, but forget it.

Forget what I wrote before. I'm on a process of rejuvenating. A Rebirth. I'm going to make sure that when I come back to Portugal, I will come back different. A better person. A better woman. A better everything. And this blog will be the proof of the progress I'm going to make in this Rebirth Process. It's not a need. It's a must DO. If I want to be happy.

After this boring bla bla, I do have good news. I started to gain the urge of drawing when I feltl like drawing my Original Character, Sanji, and getting her tattooed in my left arm. It's was a hell of a snap. The first inspiration that hit me, I got tattooed almost full arm. And since then I don't regret it ( since then....lol I had it done three days ago) but she looks beautifull. It's was remarkable for me indeed.

Sorry for the all this nonsense. But I really needed to talk a bit, and got a little carried away.

Next time I will post some stuff. Pictures, drawings etc. And be funnier ( I promise haha...)

Bye.

BrB

Wait....

I just need some rest.

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Chop Suey

Hey Fellas!

*Sigh* bla bla bla, OK I don't update that often bla bla.
At the beginning of this month I had the golden oportunity and was fortunate enough to see Distant Worlds, music from Final fantasy. It was MAGICAL, pure awesomeness. It was so amazing, I cried a river as soon they played the first string of the harp for The prelude of Final fantasy. The concert was in London, I was there with my boyfriend for 3 days. I wish I could've stayed more time but, it was SO worth it. Next time I will surely go for the V.I.P tickets and personally thank Nobuo Uematsu in person for making such beautiful music! /teary eye

Drawing, drawings. Well, at least I could register a funny moment I had while I was in the U.K. waiting for the concert precisely... it's not much but meh....

I don't have anything agaisnt cosplayers. Really. But if you're thinking of making it, Goddamn make it right and perfect dammit! Really, personally, I wish I could cosplay myself. But I could have my butt frozen if I went as Fran from Final Fantasy XII, and my boyfriend would seriously have some trouble keeping away some pervs, *cof*. Anyway... Why some guys would cosplay poorly for this big event? I bet Nobuo and Sakaguchi rolled over on the floor when they saw them. I would feel ashamed of myself. Geez... Well that's what I think though. OH MY GOD SAKAGUCHI WAS THERE TOO!!!!!!

Back to the reality. I hated it when I came back. *sigh*

There's a major contest going on in Deviantart. And I'll give it a shot. I got nothing to lose.

Here's a sneek peek.

If you're an unconditional fan of Mignon, and have  erotic nude posters of myself all over your teenage room, you can surely guess where this comes from. I'm re-making a old drawing of mine, for the contest. It's still in progress of course.
 I'm tired of typing, I'm gonna go back to my drawings.

Tchau!

Xao Ming

Hello

You know what? I give up. I really suck at updating this blog daily... Meh. I love rainy days, specially when Im at home, drinking tea. I hate being sick though. I hate injections. Meh.

I've installed CS6 here at home, since at work I work with the updated version of Photoshop also, and never been so enthusiastic about it.

I know I should, or supposed to draw something about Autumn, but I came up with this. My Sanji chilling out under the trees, and a failed attempt to draw feet. Yeah, I know the perspective is kinda (all) wrong, but the main purpose here is only to... draw.I really wanted to draw freely, nothing else, free of rules etc etc

And some features of CS6 ROCK man, the brush projection feature from CS6 changed my life.

Next month Im going to UK to see Final Fantasy Distant Worlds with my boyfriend. CAN'T WAAAAIT!!

Bye

Pot Roast

Hey guys,

It's no use... There's so many sketches to show now... blergh, I've made a selection, well, not all drawings are worth showing, really... but here goes:

Just some few sketches... and yup, i'm a big fan of Final Fantasy VIII. Bunch of life studies, state of mind, fanarts, project studies...a lil' bit of everything , blah

 

Here's some preview of what i'm working on. As I said on another entry, my colleagues at work started a challenge called "word of the day", one of them was "pin-up" and I liked my idea... Don't worry, once I organize all the drawings I'll upload them here... It's been 2 weeks, so lotsa drawings to show as always, but they're very promising ... I guess.

Cheesecake

HEY!

Remember me? argh, ok... I'm hopeless... Geez... What year is this really? ok, I RRRREALLY have been busy lately... But it's good! I've been busy with my job which requires lots of deadlines to achieve etc etc and in the meanwhile I've been drawing a lot. Really I did. I didn't update in... uhm, a month maybe, and now I have loads of stuff to show... grr. So, lets see...

 yeeeaah... I'm trying to make speedpaintings once a day, and trying to keep the rhythm of it. So I've made this Speedy by listening to Delirium Cordia by Fantômas ( if you don't know Fantômas leave this blog immediately and NEVER COME BACK! hahahah... no, seriously, please do.) So this came out. Meh, didn't finish it, and I'm not looking foward to it. I know, it was supposed to look scarier than this because Delirium Cordia is all about that.

 

Some colour challenges speedies I've made, I was trying to use at least 3-a for colours, no lineart, just started with 2 colours and then playing around with the color picker. I'm trying to maintain 2 hours each speedy I make.

  unfinished stuff... maybe I'll finish this one...

  Aww... my favourite Speedpainting I did so far. He's Mike Patton from Faith No More. Don't get me started to talk about this... MAN. Oh well, I took this reference on his video, God Hates a Coward from his band Tomahawk. Great song. I painted it in about 2 hours or so, with the video on pause. Gotta love him that much. You care enough to see which frame was it? haha

And finally I got my hands on my drawings from Chill Out Art house, not all of them, because I did more nude drawings but it was only 10 minutes sketches, and I still didn't get those (I hope SOMEONE takes the hint..... )

I still have to update my sketchbook... I'm already half way. So much to scan.... grr. Oh and I have some new drawings to show. My buddies at work started a new challenge everyday after lunch to do a daily sketch. It is based on the word of the day. Each one of us gets to choose one word once a day, and draw about it. The results are pretty funny and amazing. Its so stimulating drawing with such talented people. You get to learn a lot.

Well, I hope I can get to scan my sketchbook in this week yet.

bye!

Pizza Pie

umm.. hi!

Sorry... been so busy lately... I've made tons of stuff and now... I feel the need to select it the (less boring) stuff here... I'm gonna load some stuff time to time and in the meanwhile I'm going to talk about random stuff about my life. My life would make an Indian movie (this pun is not mine by the way) ...or a mexican soap opera really.

I work on an animation studio, I paint the textures like clothing, characters' hair etc. I work 9 hours a day and I feel that with this kind of work, I have improved my painting skills. I really do. So bear with me. 

Some digital stuff, just to put something new. I will update tomorrow, when I get the chance to scan my sketchbook.

 Finally I can put this artwork, its a comission I've made ( I can't put the original due to copyright issues etc etc its just the work in progress as you can see it) got well paid on this one. The cat has got to eat ya know?

Some speed paintings I did... I'm trying to do at least 1 per day and trying diferent strokes. No lineart, just painting for color studies purposes. OH, and no references. Its the progress I've made so far with the life observation and the 69 seconds poses from posemaniacs.

I swear I'll update my sketchbook D: