Sorry I didn't update like I promised. I've been drawing but not as much as I wanted to. I guess it's not that simple. Coming to Norway and expecting to get well all of a sudden. I wish I could. But no. I still have too much in my mind. But here's what I've been drawing lately. Nothing much.
My daily walks. Sunny days are rare here, so this was a beautiful day.
Why can't we save everyone? I hate this. I've been depressed lately. Almost the same as when I had my breakdown. My heart is heavy. I hate myself for worrying so much about people who don't care. I hate spending a lot of energy for them. But most importantly, I hate seeing friends I care suffering and you can't do anything about it. And even worst, when that person is from your own family. What should I do? They complain about it, they grieve, I see and hear with my own eyes and ears that they are suffering. Their tears are falling, and you wipe them but you feel hopeless for them. I feel useless. I can't even draw properly. I can't think about anything else. Because of how sorry I feel for that person. I don't know if I can recover either but who cares? What's the point of recovering if I constantly see pain in my loved ones? My hands are tied. They cry but I can't do anything.
"- Why everyone I love pick people who treat us like they're nothing?
- We accept the love we think we deserve. "
Stephen Chbosky in the Perks of being a Wallflower
You are a wonderful, sensitive person, who has a gift. That gift is helping other people feel things and come to terms with their feelings. by means of your art, and lately, your writing. Because of this post, I feel what you are feeling right now. I sympathize and I really hope she listens to her heart and to you, and that she does the right thing. She's also a sister to me. I know things will get better, because they just can't get any worse.
ReplyDeleteTenho a dizer que adoro os teus diários gráficos e os teus sketches todos. Adoro o teu estilo, a forma como desenhas, seja o que for. It's awesome. :)
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